Feel so fucking distracted. There are too many things on my mind and in my heart. I just wish I could stop my central nervous system from working so I can be void of any emotions. Just for this period of exams. Why does this shit always happen to me at the wrong time? Looking back on the exchanges we made and shared, it seemed like things were favourable. But reality has it's own way of fucking things up and punching you in the face with the hard truth. Reality is a fucked up bitch. It makes you think one thing but in actual fact it cheats your feelings, gets your hopes up high and then dashes them causing you to fall even harder. It shatters your heart into a million pieces leaving you to salvage this sad situation by yourself. It's draining and not to mention fucking painful but what other choice do I have? All I can do now is push myself to pick up the pieces and move on, hoping that things will turn out for the better. I just want to rip my heart out so the emotional side of me will shut the fuck up and for once let the logical side, if it even exists, to guide my decisions and choices. 

Once again I quote, Fate is an elegant, cold hearted whore.